What do you do when you come to a fork in the road? Do you press the OnStar button for assistance? Do you call someone familiar with the area and seek their advice? Do you follow your gut instinct?
I'm standing at the end of the road, starring at a fork with 3 options. I can stay in Tennessee, finish nursing school, end up working at the same hospital where I was born. I can move to California, apply to a nursing school out there, start all over, new coast, new life. I can move to Texas and follow in the footsteps of the bravest person I know-my BFF.
I am always so quick to make a decision, most times without weighing the pros and cons. Tennessee has been my home for more than 20 years, and it will always be a place to call home, but right now I think it is time to get away. Get away from the monotony of job, get away from the mundane concerns my current lifestyle. I seek adventure. I am hoping to be that light down the road less traveled.
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Beyonce-EGO (parking lot edition)
I LOVE his big....ego! LoL!
I really enjoy singing/dancing/acting a fool in my car!
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
You Are My Roc(k)
I have had the same best friend since I was 13 years old. Twelve years of ups and downs, but he has always been there for me, and I have always been there for him. When he was in Iraq fighting and nursing soldiers back to health, I was right there-virtually-beside him. Never missed a phone call or email. I even explained to my professors that if I ran out of the room it was because I had to take the call from Iraq. He now lives on the opposite side of the US and we still keep in touch. We haven't missed a beat. Both going on with our separate lives while continuing to motivate and support each other. I wouldn't trade him in for anything in the world. He is my ROC(k)! I don't know what I would do or where I would be without him.
I sometimes wonder if he realizes just how much he means to me. The love I have for him is more than the love for a best friend, more than the love for a brother, more than the love for a soul mate...The love I have for him is indescribable.
A true friend should be cherished, for they are a rare commodity.
I sometimes wonder if he realizes just how much he means to me. The love I have for him is more than the love for a best friend, more than the love for a brother, more than the love for a soul mate...The love I have for him is indescribable.
A true friend should be cherished, for they are a rare commodity.
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Why Do We Try So Hard To Blend?
Thank you Sabra723 for inspiring me to write this blog.
Stress is caused by my naivete.
My job is stressful. However, my stress level seems to rise whenever I am working with my "friends". This topic was discussed a few weeks ago, but after listening to Sabrina Lynne, I was able to see that these are people I should let go of, if it is God's will. I am holding on to some friendships that I feel are not built on solid ground. It seems as though the relationship is sinking slowing, much like a sinkhole. Work and friendships seem not to go hand in hand. I would much rather work with the one employee that I do not consider a friend. She and I have nothing in common, but we seem to get the job done when we work together as a team.
I thought I had a good friend in someone, but I seem to keep getting "burned" in this friendship. I have given this person a second chance, only to get burned again. I don't appreciate it. I thought a friendship was something to be treasured, because true friends are hard to come by...but some people are determined to be in your life just to stir up mess.
I think one of my main problems is that people try so hard to blend. My true friends and I don't have everything in common. We are all unique and different and it works out so well. I don't try to be like them, they don't try to be like me. Our differences unite us. It is time for people to start being real. Stop trying so hard to blend. Be confident in who you are. Love the you that was uniquely created by God. Don't be ashamed of what you have to offer. You never know who you are helping by just being yourself.
I know that it is time to get rid of some of the "blenders" and "impostors" in my life. It is hard to do, but I can't continue to give of myself only to be taken advantage of, ridiculed, belittled, talked about, disrespected, and hated behind my back. I am confident in who I am and what I have to offer a true friend. I am so quick to love an accept that it sometimes gets me into trouble. I am tired of hurting. It is time for me to surround myself with positivity.
I don't want to blend.
Stress is caused by my naivete.
My job is stressful. However, my stress level seems to rise whenever I am working with my "friends". This topic was discussed a few weeks ago, but after listening to Sabrina Lynne, I was able to see that these are people I should let go of, if it is God's will. I am holding on to some friendships that I feel are not built on solid ground. It seems as though the relationship is sinking slowing, much like a sinkhole. Work and friendships seem not to go hand in hand. I would much rather work with the one employee that I do not consider a friend. She and I have nothing in common, but we seem to get the job done when we work together as a team.
I thought I had a good friend in someone, but I seem to keep getting "burned" in this friendship. I have given this person a second chance, only to get burned again. I don't appreciate it. I thought a friendship was something to be treasured, because true friends are hard to come by...but some people are determined to be in your life just to stir up mess.
I think one of my main problems is that people try so hard to blend. My true friends and I don't have everything in common. We are all unique and different and it works out so well. I don't try to be like them, they don't try to be like me. Our differences unite us. It is time for people to start being real. Stop trying so hard to blend. Be confident in who you are. Love the you that was uniquely created by God. Don't be ashamed of what you have to offer. You never know who you are helping by just being yourself.
I know that it is time to get rid of some of the "blenders" and "impostors" in my life. It is hard to do, but I can't continue to give of myself only to be taken advantage of, ridiculed, belittled, talked about, disrespected, and hated behind my back. I am confident in who I am and what I have to offer a true friend. I am so quick to love an accept that it sometimes gets me into trouble. I am tired of hurting. It is time for me to surround myself with positivity.
I don't want to blend.
Monday, February 16, 2009
The Countdown Continues...
Only a few more days until I am hopefully reunited with the man I have grown to love. The anticipation is killing me. He is more than amazing, more than wonderful, he's the one. I know this now but I don't want to act on it.
Contrary to popular belief, this love thing is not a game. It is serious. I can feel it in every fiber of my being. I am willing to drive 6 hours just to be in his presence. I don't want to marry him at this second. I don't need him to declare his love for me. I don't need a title. Right now, I just want to enjoy his friendship. Nothing more, nothing less.
If this is meant to be, then it will be. Nothing can change fate. Before I met him, I just knew that we would not get along. I thought he was just another intern that I could use as free labor. But serendipity stepped in. Not only did I discover something fortunate, I also found something honest and true. Something I have grown to cherish and value. Something I never want to lose.
He told me once that it would be impossible to replace him. I thought it was a joke, but now I realize that he was right. He's irreplaceable...unequivocally and undeniably.
3 more days...
Contrary to popular belief, this love thing is not a game. It is serious. I can feel it in every fiber of my being. I am willing to drive 6 hours just to be in his presence. I don't want to marry him at this second. I don't need him to declare his love for me. I don't need a title. Right now, I just want to enjoy his friendship. Nothing more, nothing less.
If this is meant to be, then it will be. Nothing can change fate. Before I met him, I just knew that we would not get along. I thought he was just another intern that I could use as free labor. But serendipity stepped in. Not only did I discover something fortunate, I also found something honest and true. Something I have grown to cherish and value. Something I never want to lose.
He told me once that it would be impossible to replace him. I thought it was a joke, but now I realize that he was right. He's irreplaceable...unequivocally and undeniably.
3 more days...
When Did I Become the Bad Guy?
What the heck are we fighting for??
I have tried to keep my pharmacy running at a somewhat normal pace, but my "manager" doesn't seem to appreciate it nor does he understand the severity of the situation. I am sick and tired of slaving at that place when he just moseys about at a snail's pace. This is ridiculous.
Okay, I admit it...I tend to fuss a little bit to get my point across. But if I just sit back and play it cool, my pharmacy will be total chaos!!!
I don't know why he fights me at every step. Maybe its because he realized that someone younger than him actually knows what the heck she's doing.
I have tried to keep my pharmacy running at a somewhat normal pace, but my "manager" doesn't seem to appreciate it nor does he understand the severity of the situation. I am sick and tired of slaving at that place when he just moseys about at a snail's pace. This is ridiculous.
Okay, I admit it...I tend to fuss a little bit to get my point across. But if I just sit back and play it cool, my pharmacy will be total chaos!!!
I don't know why he fights me at every step. Maybe its because he realized that someone younger than him actually knows what the heck she's doing.
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Rayven's Raves
Thursday night I found myself wandering around Frazier Avenue looking for something to do. Starving and refusing to walk the entire North Shore in search of good food, I stopped in at Jet Stream Grill.
The atmosphere was wonderful; each booth outfitted with its own little flat screen television, dim lighting, soft music, large booths that could easily fit 6 people. It was the epitome of happiness. My server was prompt and courteous (gotta love that Southern Hospitality). I was immediately drawn to the Peach Sweet Tea (a Southern staple), Chicken Alfredo, and Strawberry Shortcake. I must admit, everything was delicious with the exception of the dessert. It was much like a Sara Lee store bought frozen pound cake with one small strawberry on top. The ice cream wasn't exactly the greatest either. The meal itself was fantastic. Olive Garden is my favorite Italian restaurant, but the Southern touch that was added to the Chicken Alfredo was a pleasant surprise (minus the uncooked tomatoes on top). I highly recommend it. My bill came to about $22 before the tip.
Jet Stream grill is a wonderful restaurant for families, friends, first dates or anniversaries. Great food, great staff, and the wonderful Southern charm makes it one of my "RAVES".
Jet Stream Grill
Chattanooga, TN
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
I Found God at the Corner of 1st and Amistad...
Today was a very emotional and uplifting day for me.
I work with a wonderfully blessed youth pastor who encourages and helps me every day. He is a kind spirit and allows God to use him to the fullest. I was feeling really down lately because of everything going on. I have strayed so far away from God that I thought there was no way I could come back.
He spent almost 2 hours talking, praying, mentoring, and helping me to find peace of mind that can only be found through the Word. I spent much of that time crying and praying. He is what I call a "Real Life" pastor. He has lived life and seen so much. When he talks and preaches it feels like I am just having a conversation with a friend. I needed that.
As we sat in the car talking about any and everything, it made me think of the song by The Fray "You Found Me". The first line of that song describes my experience tonight..."I found God at the corner of 1st and Amistad". I have been searching for God for a few months now, never making time for Him, finding excuses not to go to worship, reasons why I couldn't tithe, justifying my absence from small groups, wondering why everything I touched turned to sand. It was all because I was not right with God. I found Him again tonight and it felt better than the first time. I felt like a weight had been lifted off of my shoulders. I could stand tall and walk with my head up, not afraid of the future anymore. For once in my life, the pieces were coming together quicker than I ever imagined they could.
Faith. I once spoke on having faith the size of a mustard seed. That's all it takes. I have to admit that my pastor never gave up on me. He would always remind me to turn to God, not to man. I listened, but never really heard him. Tonight, I was able to hear him. I was able to feel the chills that came over my body when I decided to give my life back to Christ. I understand that God is not trapped in a church or at a worship service. God is everywhere. I was able to reach out to Him, at any time and at any place...even if it was at the corner of 1st and Amistad.
I work with a wonderfully blessed youth pastor who encourages and helps me every day. He is a kind spirit and allows God to use him to the fullest. I was feeling really down lately because of everything going on. I have strayed so far away from God that I thought there was no way I could come back.
He spent almost 2 hours talking, praying, mentoring, and helping me to find peace of mind that can only be found through the Word. I spent much of that time crying and praying. He is what I call a "Real Life" pastor. He has lived life and seen so much. When he talks and preaches it feels like I am just having a conversation with a friend. I needed that.
As we sat in the car talking about any and everything, it made me think of the song by The Fray "You Found Me". The first line of that song describes my experience tonight..."I found God at the corner of 1st and Amistad". I have been searching for God for a few months now, never making time for Him, finding excuses not to go to worship, reasons why I couldn't tithe, justifying my absence from small groups, wondering why everything I touched turned to sand. It was all because I was not right with God. I found Him again tonight and it felt better than the first time. I felt like a weight had been lifted off of my shoulders. I could stand tall and walk with my head up, not afraid of the future anymore. For once in my life, the pieces were coming together quicker than I ever imagined they could.
Faith. I once spoke on having faith the size of a mustard seed. That's all it takes. I have to admit that my pastor never gave up on me. He would always remind me to turn to God, not to man. I listened, but never really heard him. Tonight, I was able to hear him. I was able to feel the chills that came over my body when I decided to give my life back to Christ. I understand that God is not trapped in a church or at a worship service. God is everywhere. I was able to reach out to Him, at any time and at any place...even if it was at the corner of 1st and Amistad.
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