Nervous Laughter and Political Buffoonery

Have you ever been really nervous about something, but didn't know what it was??

I've been deathly ill the past few days and the only thing I can blame it on is nerves. Life is complete right now, except for him of course. I don't have any major moves planned so I shouldn't be nervous about anything. I should be happy, because, for once I am able to exhale. I can smile. I can laugh.

However; every time I try to laugh, it comes out as nervousness. A quiver followed by a chill. It always ends with a glance to see who's watching.

What is going on?

Aside from unexplained nervousness, I am faced with the dilemma of staying neutral in this huge political warfare being waged all around me. I am an African American with West Indian roots. That does not mean I have to go around declaring that my president is of a certain ethnic background. I am embarrassed to say the least. Yes, the past 43 presidents were Caucasian, but you didn't see Caucasians going around making songs about having a white president. I don't understand why some people chose to behave in such a way. I am glad that this election marked an historic moment for people actually voting. But I am not going to subject myself to the buffoonery of dancing around to some rap song about my president's ethnic background. Period.