On Motherhood

holding her belly after praying to the porcelain god again
realizing that this life inside of her is causing so much pain
misery in her life, trapped in a cage
"she's not married, she can't do it alone"
hearing more negative than positive
starting to believe the voices
seeing her body changing because of the life she's carrying
knowing that (s)he didn't ask for this situation
a mother unsure of herself
what she lacks in self confidence is found in her passion
passionate about the love that was made that caused this child to be
she looks in the mirror at the image of another statistic
"young college dropout gives birth to first child"
not wanting to read that article again
she contemplates ending this misery
ridding herself of the pain and agony by causing more pain and agony
how could that possibly make sense
that could not be the solution
she holds her belly realizing her mistake
a moment of lust led to this day
looking at the positive pregnancy test
thinking back to the days of years past
all the times she made the right choice
did the right thing, lived the right life
she believed the sickness was her body's way of rejecting this child
after all, they say one should follow their gut instinct
she holds her belly, thinking of her own life
was she strong enough, could she do it...